Dad

I haven't written a word yet and already my eyes are filled with tears. You never leave any doubt how much you love me even when I thought I was being the most unlovable son. Now that I am a daddy I can see why. I can relate any sad story I hear to Gavin and it tears my heart out. It's crazy how much parents can love their children. I remember all those myriad of times right before you spanked me you would say, "Son I am doing this because I love you, it's gonna hurt me more than it's gonna hurt you". Now it breaks my heart that I made you spank me. It must have been so hard for you. You should get an Oscar for acting like a badass. :) I can only pray that my convictions will be as strong as yours.

BTW When can I start spanking my kid for crying? :)

Now for the moment I remember the most fondly about my daddy.

We were living in the house in Carpentersville, and as everyone knows it was a pretty rough neighborhood. It was the only place that I had to Rob my way home from school so I wouldn't get beat up. (sorry Rob) I think it was a Saturday afternoon and for some weird reason it was just me and Dad and he came out of the blue and asked me if I wanted to go see a movie. It was the first time I can remember doing anything with my dad alone. (there were five fucking kids by this time so there was no one on one daddy time) Mom had the car so I asked how we were gonna get there and he said we would walk. I was so scared to walk even though it was like 3 blocks, but he was so tough he just walked us right to the movies, and nobody bothered us. Then when we got there he didn't pick an action movie he picked a movie I would want to see, and we saw Gremlins. I was astonished and I bragged my ass off to the other kids when they got home from whatever sucky thing they got to do. It was the coolest thing ever, and it was just me and my Dad. I don't know if he remembers, but I will never forget it as long as I live.